Saturday, May 14, 2011

Just one more thing...

I know my destiny (as far as relationships/women go).

I'm going to end up with a twice-divorced mother of two who will cheat on me and leave me, taking all that I've earned. That is my fate.

How do I know? This is pretty much the only type of person who would put up with me - plus I'm a sucker for kids.

On Necessity

I just realized that I titled my previous post "Relationships and necessity" but never got into necessity.

I just thought it would be useful to mention that I don't believe I have ever gotten something I wanted - especially not if I worked for it. In fact, if I want something, it's generally just a good idea for me to forget about it as it's almost guaranteed that I won't get it (or, worse yet, I receive what I want, but at an unacceptable cost). This pisses me off to no end, as it means all my pursuits are dead-ends.

This is not to say that I don't lead a life of privilege. In fact, if I need something, I usually receive it with plenty to spare. My needs are always fulfilled, generally before they become problematic. Jobs, scholarships, housing, food, and so on have always come available in abundance (or, in housing's case, cheaply) at the moment I need it most.

How does this relate to relationships? Well, I'm not currently emotionally damaged enough to need a stable romantic relationship, so it is highly unlikely that I will find myself in one. Fuck.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

A List

Buy a toy.

More tobacco.







It's a bitch
and a vampire.

But when I stab it
through the heart


Monday, May 2, 2011


How do I pay for past mistakes?

I remember them.


Lifeless faces peering from taxis
drive by.

I want to scream
  wake them up
    but I understand the rules:

One is not allowed to be happy
    in a taxi.